Doug has been cranky all day today. He leaves early in the morning for another week in Nashville. In the past two weeks, we functioned ok for the first two days, had problems on day three and I became a total basket case by day four. So, Wednesday something will break and Thursday I’ll have my nervous breakdown. Hope he brings home valium.

Thursday night I barely slept because I was at the hospital till 2 a.m. and after that I watched and worried about Sarah. Friday night Sarah slept with a friend. Saturday night Sarah and a friend slept at the grandparents. Tonight Sarah is at another friend’s house for a sleepover. If she had the option, she’d never be here. I miss her when she’s not here.